It started gradually...first, I stopped trying to follow the rules for what colors went together, what patterns went together and all that business. One of my close friends has always hated how I dress - too colorful, too haphazard. LOL - she is a fashion diva and I cannot keep up! I started wearing the things I loved (whether it was "in style" or not). Then I let my relaxed hair go and started cutting it shorter and shorter (people are still mad about that one). This summer, I started wearing shorts in public again after more than 10 years of hiding my legs! Then I just went ahead and cut my hair the rest of the way, just because I wanted to see what it would look like and what it would feel like. It feels free - even though I think I may do something different this winter. But being free to be me means more than what I am wearing or how I look. It means I don't set my standards according to what other people think. If I feel good about it, and I think God is alright with it, then I go for it!
At 42 years old, I am finally beginning to be OK with just me. I am who I am and what I am. A few years ago, I would have never put my picture on a blog. I could give a laundry list of the things I wish were different. The things I can change, I am working on. The other stuff - well I can't do anything about it and I am finally accepting that. I am just me. And finally, I feel free to be Kelly! Do not conform to the standards of the world. Have a higher purpose and follow a higher power. Feel free to be you! It feels pretty darn good!
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